I’m a failure . Beethoven-Hen is gone, Canna is gone, Arizona and sunshine are gone. Everyone I have cared about is gone! Hen-Rietta stays with me for pity I guess. My heart isn’t just broken, it’s been shattered thru a paper shredder and then burned with a blowtorch!!
It is so hard loosing your best friends. That makes us feel like we let them down. But everyone must die ; you make your chicken's lives the best they could be, and walk with them along their path until the end.
I think my hen Blanche will finally pass today after months of fighting to stay alive. I'm shattered too. I may not be as close a friend for my chickens as you are to yours but everytime one leaves I feel like the grief is overwhelming and I'd rather not have them anymore. Then, I guess life always takes over.